See the Lilies of the Field

Well, its 4 am on a Monday morning.  Doesn't look like I'll be going to sleep any time soon, so I decided to write...blog...whatever you want to call it.  Anyways, I've been thinking a lot lately about my future, about discernment.  Its really strange how one day you can know exactly what you wanna do, where you wanna go, what/who you wanna be...and the next day you can't even decide what color shirt to wear.  I used to know, I mean like know know that I was going to be a religious. I was going to finish school, enter with an active/contemplative convent, and live happily ever after. Then, one heartfelt sincere prayer later, I don't know anymore.  I'll be frank, I feel like God is giving me mixed signals. I mean don't get me wrong, its not like my memory is gone or anything, but its weird surrendering. Like, really letting go of what may or may not be.  Especially when society today has to know every detail of everything that will happen in your life ever....

A very short story that I had the notion of making randomly...Enjoy! :)  Lying awake in my bed, its past midnight. Though my windows are open, and a rare cool breeze floats in, I cannot get comfortable.  Something is clawing at my mind. Though my body pines for sleep- my soul is wide awake.  Inside of me there is a cry, a longing, a plea.  It confuses me.  My heart and soul are aflame with a desire my mind cannot comprehend.  Then, a whisper reaches through the darkness… “Lover,” it says, “I am here.”   And suddenly I know.  I know what, I know Who.  My heart bursts with exultation, my soul is soaring, my mind understands now!  In a second I am on my knees, and suddenly, with just a change of thought, I am immersed in an unrequited loving embrace!  Here is my Lord, my Love, here is my desire! After a few moments of ecstasy and prayer, I find myself more at peace than I had ever been before.    I drifted then, to...

   Hello again! Its been a looong time since I last posted and I apologize.  There's just been so much going on, its been crazy! Family coming down, finals, graduations, my Confirmation, birthdays, and Steubenville Conferences. I thought summer was supposed to be relaxing? Anywho, like I mentioned before I went to my 3rd Steubenville Conference, at Franciscan University in Steubenville Ohio.  It was my third time and I wasn't expecting anything big to happen, no huge emotional moments like last year, no revelations. But I did encounter God there, in a new and unique way.  And I think that's what I like the most about the conferences.  Each year is unlike the next, maybe in the way they're setup they're the same, but each time the way I encounter God is different. The first year, I was shown how amazing and fun my faith is.  The second, I learned about God's love, and I decided at that moment to live for Him.  This year,  I came to Him with a ...

 “...Most blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb. And how does this happen to me, that the mother of my Lord should come to me?" Luke 1:42-43 Our Savior comes to us everyday in the Eucharist, through this we become like Mary,a tabernacle.  We have Christ within us! Her Magnificat should be the song of our souls. We should echo her words every second of every day, "My soul doth magnify the Lord And my spirit rejoices in God my Savior..."  This is our GOD! Like Mary, we should be filled wonder and awe, we should be filled with His joy and love because He has saved us, lifted us up from the dirt from which we came and has given us the ability to join Him forever in paradise! Like Elizabeth we should be filled with humility and adoration? "How does this happen to me?" That our Lord and  His Mother should come to us? Take this to heart friends, Mary is the perfect way to get to Jesus, she is the perfect model to follow. She is the link...

Prayer. Prayer is amazing. It is the greatest gift that the Lord has given us (other than the Sacraments which- by the way- all come from the Mass, which is a prayer in and of itself).  It is direct communication with Him! How amazing, and wonderful is that!? We can talk to God , and He can talk to us! Prayer gives us a TON of graces. It helps us in our walk towards Christ and Heaven. "Prayer reveals to souls the vanity of earthly goods and pleasures. It fills them with light, strength and consolation; and gives them a foretaste of the calm bliss of our heavenly home." -St. Rose of Viterbo "Virtues are formed by prayer. Prayer preserves temperance. Prayer suppresses anger. Prayer prevents emotions of pride and envy. Prayer draws into the soul the Holy Spirit, and raises man to Heaven." -St. Ephraem Recently my prayer life has faltered. I became immersed in my school life with tests, extended essays, AP exams etc... Sure, I would say a Hail Mary, Glory Be, Ou...

   Hello All!    Well, it has been awhile hasn't it?  I apologize for not posting I just got caught up with life.  So much has happened. I've been able to talk with some great, holy people, and have some great moments with God.  Today though, I want to talk about love.    Love. A word we often misuse. A word that gets lost in translation.  Do we really know what it means? I could give you a dictionary definition, but we as Catholics, as Christians, as followers of Christ, have that definition written on our hearts, our souls. Often times He is hanging around our necks, on our walls, in our churches, in the Tabernacle.  The definition of love, is Jesus Christ.  He is our perfect model when it comes to Love.  He gave His life for damnable sinners, the very same who put Him up there on that cross. He even  forgave  them, forgave us .  If thats not love, what the heck is? ...

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. Amen WE HAVE A POPE!!!! How amazing and wonderful is that! God has given us a leader, a protector, a shepherd! And what a wonderful one he will be, I feel it!  I feel so thankful that the Lord would bless us with such a man!  He seems just the right guy for the job. O Lord, we are the millions of believers, humbly kneeling at Your feet and begging You to preserve, defend and save the Sovereign Pontiff  for many years. He is the Father of the great fellowship of souls and our Father as well.  On this day, as on every other day, He is praying for us also and is offering unto You with holy fervor the sacred Victim of love and peace. O Lord, turn Yourself toward us with eyes of pity, for we are now, as it were, forgetful of ourselves and are praying above all for Him. Unite our prayers with His and receive them into the bosom of Your infinite mercy, as a sweet savor of active and f...