See the Lilies of the Field

I wake up, rub my eyes, and halfheartedly push the covers off. I get out of bed and kneel on the cool hardwood. "Thank You Lord for my life, for letting me wake up this morning. For, should I have come to You in the night I would have been cast out. Thank You Lord for the opportunity to live another day for You. Take my thoughts, actions, and feelings, and turn them all towards You." This is the prayer I pray every morning. I get up and dress, reciting prayers by memory. I am barely awake enough to process what day it is. Just barely. Today is the day of Final Profession!! My heart skips a beat. My Jesus, My Beloved! Today, our engagement comes to an end. Our True Marriage begins! Oh Joyous day! The morning is a blur, family arrives, final preparations made. Sisters hastily fixing last minute details. Black capes are put on and we are preparing to process into the Sanctuary. Mass begins. All I can think about is I am about to receive Christ in the Eucharist

   Okay, so I've been trying to keep an open mind about my future vocation.  Not like I wasn't before, but I was really putting some effort into it this time. I know I'm still pretty young but, Mary was betrothed at 13 you know.    I asked God to show me, then it got a bit confusing, so I prayed that He might show me more clearly what His will was... Well He did. And He did it with some flare too!  It felt like He was ripping a band-aid off. *Sigh*  Its funny though, when I think about it. I was telling a good friend in the car the other day, I meet a guy and its like, "Well, hello there!" And a few weeks later, "Well, goodbye then."    I don't know what He wants for my future, I can only live for right now.    And so I shall. I'll persevere, hey its not like I was planning on dating before college anyways.  I wanted to wait until the maturity level on both ends was a little higher. Plus, none of the guys in my school (well there's one I